leaving miami

moving.

we are moving.
at the time of posting, we have less than 12 hours until we pull out of the driveway in miami.

it has been a long time in the works, and i have struggled with this decision for a long time. at first, i struggled to understand danny's emotion, his homesickness for polk county and his resistance to settle in miami, and then i struggled with my own emotions, the same longing for familiar turf and faces, and the resounding loneliness that surrounded us in dade county.

it was not an easy decision to make, though we never really planned to be in miami permanently.

i have made a few friends here, with people at church and in the children's home, and i am reluctant to say goodbye. i will miss them dearly, and as much as i will try to maintain connection, i think we all know it won't be the same. i feel disappointed in myself, and fear their disappointment, that maybe we didn't give our full effort to make this work and to stay.

we have worked a difficult job, and we are broken. we are not leaving to escape, but to heal. that, more than anything, should be sufficient to lift any disappointment i might have in myself.

moving home holds a lot of hope for us. there is the promise of family, those people who have known us all our lives and encourage us in our dreams, and there are the friends, who bring joy into every meeting. there is the promise of roots, of building a community and a home. these things quiet my misgivings about leaving, and encourage my heart to dream.

the future is a little uncertain at this point, though we know and trust that our Provider is preparing the way for us. we long for godly community, and to be rebuilt in our faith and our family.

in seeking employment, i have found a position as a substitute teacher at a local christian school, which will allow me plenty of time to pursue my creativity as well. one of my hopes for the future is to build an online shop, and i've gotten started here. i'm hoping to build a unique inventory, and to eventually create my own brand and product line. sometimes it feels like i'm aiming too high, but i don't want to settle for little dreams.

i hope you will continue to follow my blog, as i anticipate having more time and energy to invest here. i really do want to share so many details from my every day life, and i am counting on exciting details in the future.

as we move forward, i'll ask for your prayers and encouragement. i'm sure there's hard work ahead.
-karey